I hate myself..

I hate myself, for not fighting when you left.

I hate myself, for letting you go.

I hate myself, for not saying anything.

I hate myself, for what I have become.

I hate myself, for wanting to hate you.

I hate myself more, for not being able to hate you.

I hate myself the most, for still wanting to be with you.

But why I really hate myself, is coz I know you hate me too..

What happened?

Whenever I am down and need a little pull,
I look for you, with expectations full..
But I can't help, but get hurt when I see,
That you are not there, you are not there for me..

When I am all alone and need someone the most,
You will be there for me, is what I used to boast..
But you are no longer there at the time of my need,
Why can't you feel my pain or see my heart bleed?

I was a fool to think you ll abandon me never,
But how was I to know that things would change forever..
That the friendship we built over the past years,
Would end up being the reason for all my tears..

I know you care for me, deep within your heart,
And I wish there was some way to have a brand new start..
But we have managed to go apart, so farther away,
It doesn't really feel fair, to show my dismay..

It's hard to imagine we were best friends once,
But all that's left is some kind of acquaintance..
I wish there was some way, to turn back time,
When the joy of our friendship was a reason to rhyme..

But seeing how you are moving away, everyday a little more,
I really want to hate you from deep within my core,
But I could never do that, no matter what you do,
And so I hate myself, for what you put me through..

I'll be there for you..

Like all the things involving the heart,
You just drown in the happiness, right from the start,
And you get a jolt when you realize that it’s time to part,
Coz that’s when you feel something getting ripped apart..

When somebody you love leaves, you start to face your fears,
And all that’s left is the memories of yesteryears,
I wish I could just wipe away those tears,
Or at the least be there to lend some listening ears…

The love you had will always course through your vein,
And the memories will turn from blessings to bane,
But you will have to learn to move on with the pain,
Hoping that someday the memories will wane…

All I wanted to do was be there for you,
To stand by you so that you don’t feel so blue,
I started to see the things between us going askew,
But I really had no clue on what I could do..

Whenever I look at the pain in your eyes,
I wish I could say something really nice,
Something, that would make you realize,
That there is no use in breaking all the ties..

I know you wish for things to somehow get right,
Just believe in your love and put up a fight,
But when everything seems bleak and you are looking for a light,
Remember this friend just waiting out of sight..

Friends forever?

Kitni Ajeeb hai ye dosti humari,
ki itne paas hoke bhi itni door ho chuke hai..
har din saath rehne par bhi,
baat bhi nahi kar paate hain..

Ek doosre ke saath waqt guzaarte hain,
par ek doosre ke liye nahi..
ek doosre ko apna maante hain,
par wo apnapan hi raha nahi..

teri har raaz main jaana karta tha,
ab to teri koi khabar bhi nahi,
tere har dukh ka sahara tha,
ab to teri khushi ka bhi hissa nahi..

dost bante waqt na jaane kya socha tha,
ab na jaane kahan aa pahunche hain hum..
tera khaas dost hua karta tha,
ab to sirf ek pehchaan reh gaye hain hum..

The answer to why it's you...

The day I set my eyes upon you,
I knew my feelings were deep and true,
Every moment that I spend with you,
Is special, exciting and something new!

Seeing your face so sweet & bright,
Makes all my troubles feel alright,
So I long to see you - a glimpse or a passing sight,
And end up dreaming about you - day and night!

From your beautiful eyes that make a lovely pair,
To the sight of your hands combing your wet hair,
From the twinkling smile that you always wear,
To our laughs & talks that is oh so rare!

When you are sitting in front of me, all nice and sweet,
I can hardly make myself sit calmly in my seat,
Coz your mere presence makes my heart skip a beat,
There is no one else who can boast such a feat!

You are sweet, funny, interesting and clever,
I wonder if I will find someone like you, ever,
That's why I wish I could be with you forever,
Now.. here.. whenever.. wherever..

PyAr...

Dikhate ho ki tumko farak nahi padta hai,
par fikra to saara chehre pe hi nazar aa jaata hai..
pyaar hai magar poori aazadi hai kehte ho,
par kisi aur ke saath waqt guzaaren to undar hi undar jalte ho..

pyaar hai pata hai, dikhane ki koi zaroorat nahi,
phir bhi jab kabhi dikhta nahi, to dono rooth jaate ho sahi..
kehte ho ki har pal saath rehane ki chahat nahi,
par jab saath nahi ho to kuch aur soch paate nahi..

"pyaar to bahut hai sirf baatein thode kam hain" bolte ho,
phir bhi jab jagda karte ho to poori tarah se chup ho jaate ho..
Jaante ho pyaar ki buniyaad barose aur ehsaas dilane mein hi hai,
Phir bhi ek doosre se khulke pyaar karne se hichkichate ho..

Tumare pyaar pe poora barosa hai hume,
Kaash wahi barosa apne pyaar mein hota tume,
Tumari ye prem kahani jeet jaayegi poori,
Par uske liye ek doosre pe barosa hai zaroori..

Boss..

Bosses like you are hard to find,
Sometimes stern and sometimes kind,
Someone who pushes the body and mind,
Yet ensures fun and work are combined.
So on this special and wonderful day,
I am sending this beautiful wish your way,
Hope you get happiness and success everyday,
Wishing you the best and a very Happy Birthday!