What do you do?

What do you do when you love someone so much,
But to them you don't really mean anything as such?

What do you do when loving someone makes you sore,
But all you want to do is love them even more?

What do you do when the love has given you nothing but pain,
But all you want to do is drench in it's rain?

What do you do when everything feels wrong,
But you can't do anything, but go along?

What do you do when you know it's not meant to be,
But your heart and soul would just not agree?

What do you do when you know you have lost,
But you want to win back, no matter what the cost?

What do you do when no matter how much you fight,
You know things would never be alright?

What do you do when the only person who mattered,
Is the person who broke your heart and left it shattered?

Why Oh Why Oh Why...

What is it you do,
that I keep coming back to you?

Why is it so hard,
to keep up my guard?

Why does your sight make my heart stop,
and then make it spin like a top?

Why can't you be mine,
And make it all fine?

Sometimes, the question is not why.. It's why not..

What did I get by loving you the way I did?
What was the point of keeping my feelings well hid?

why did I do it when I knew it would remain unsaid?
even when the weight of it, crushed me like lead?

Why did I let myself fall for you?
Knowing very well that you would never have a clue?

These are question I keep asking myself..
maybe having loved someone is enough in itself..

Culprit

Na samajh paaye ho tum mujhko,
Na samjhe ho mere pyaar ko,
Is baat ka main dosh doon tumko,
ya ghunhegar maanun apne aapko?

Let's fix things...

Baatein to tumse karni hai kahi,
Darta hoon ki keh na paaunga sahi...

Jaanta hoon teri isme galati nahi hai,
Par choth to bahut mujhe hi lagi hai...

Chahta hoon ki tum bhi samjho mujhko,
Kyun ki chod nahi sakta aiven hi tujhko...

Meri zaroorat to sirf teri hi khushi hai,
Wo khushi, jisme mera bhi koi hissa hai..

Sab se peeche hum khaden..

Your past may haunt you, you may not be in peace,
but I won't try to wipe out your old memories..
You might end up comparing with what you had,
but I promise I won't let it make me sad..
Thoughts of him might linger at the back of your mind,
but u won't regret choosing me, I won't leave you behind..
I won't claim to love you more..
But my love will be true, that's for sure..
Regain ur faith in love and romance,
Go ahead and give us a chance..

Incomplete...

The less I try to think of you,
The more I end up missing you..
The more I try to get over you,
The more I fall in love with you..

You are fun, quirky and claim to be dark,
but with no one else i can feel this spark,
Your eyes, your smile and talks so fine,
I wish as you are, you wud be mine..

The one..

I was the one who wiped your tears,
I was the one who swept away your fears...
I was the one who stood by you..
I was the one who stayed true..

I was your support, I was your pillar,
When your life felt empty, I was the filler..
I was the one who supported your decisions,
Even when these decisions went through numerous revisions..

I was the one who loved you so much,
Loved you to the extent, you'd never known such..
But one fine day, when you could finally move on,
I was nowhere in your mind, from your thoughts I was gone..

I was the one who completely understood you,
But you chose someone else, someone you barely knew..
All I could do, was stand by and see,
See you fall for him, fall for him rather than me..

Why couldn't you see that I loved you to the core?
Why couldn't you see that I would have loved you more??
He wasn't wrong for you, but he was a complete mess,
Yet, you were happy with him, happy for less..

And that's when it struck me - I knew what I had to do,
I would remain the friend - the friend who helped you through..
And so I killed the love, the love I had for you,
Just to see you happy, happy without a clue..

Simpler to say...

Try as I might to keep such thoughts at bay,
I can't help but feel that we are moving away,
I know you are busy & so I should be okay,
but we rarely meet or talk, be it weekend or weekday..

I am afraid you don't need me anymore,
Just thinking that makes me feel all sore,
Not that you were totally dependent till the core,
But I wish things would be as they were before..

A time when you used to tell me all your things,
from office to home & even all your flings,
A time when we used to do a lot of talking,
A time when we did a lil bit of walking..

We work in the same place,
But don't even meet face to face,
we live so close to each other,
But we don't even see one another..

I miss all those wonderful times that we spent,
I keep wondering where it all went,
I miss your I-don't-care attitude that was so untrue,
I even miss your crankiness & the NOs that you threw..

Maybe it's simpler to say - I miss you..

Yaadein..

Tere yaadon ke sahare,
har din thoda jee leta hoon main,
Unhi yaadon ke wajah se,
har din thoda aur marr jaata hoon main..

What do you do when what is right, feels wrong?

Na teri aane ki khabar hai mujhko, Na teri jaane ki..
Na khabar hai kya ho raha hai teri zindagi mein..
Na saath waqt guzaar paate hain hum,
Na waqt guzaarne ka mauka dete ho tum..

kya main bhura maanun ki tunmare paas waqt nahi mere liye,
Ya is baat ka ki tumko jo waqt milta hai, usme main yaad nahi aata?
Samajhta hoon ye waqt kisi aur ko dena zaroori hai,
Par kya us waqt ka ek hiss apne liye maangna itni bhuri hai?

Dil kehta hai kuch galat ho raha hai,
Dimag kehta hai, yehi sahi ho raha hai,
Dil aur dimag ke is jagde ke beech,
Dil bhi kahin jaanta hai ki dimag hi sahi hai..

Once in a blue moon..

I really wish it would come soon,
The call that you make once in a blue moon,
Try as I might to act that I don't care,
I soon find myself giving my mobile the stare...

Waiting impatiently, fidgeting about,
Knowing you'll call but still having a doubt,
Not wanting to be the person who sticks too much,
But not knowing what else I can do as such..


Wanting to know how are things going,
Wanting to hear everything that you are doing,
Praying and wishing that you'd call soon,
The call that you make once in a blue moon...

I Wish...

When I see you upset, when I see you cry,
Before I could think, to ask the reason why,
My hands reach up, reach up to dry,
To wipe away the tears, the tears from your eye..

Seeing you hurt, is a very painful sight,
Controlling my anger, takes all my might..
I want to hold you close and I want to hold you tight,
Till you stop crying and start to feel alright..

I have never wanted to be there for someone,
The way I want to be there for you..
But I know that's not how it's done,
I know it's not my place to do...

I know you have someone else to keep you strong,
but if I too want to be there, is it so wrong?
I wish you needed me, the way you used to,
I wish you needed me, the way I need you..